You know when it feels like you really, honestly have far too much going on, and you do not do anything that you have not put into your schedule? You know the feeling where sometimes even the most minute details of your everyday life have to be written down somewhere (like, for example in my life, “write in blog”) or else they go the way of the Island of Misfit Tasks…?
No? Just me? I think you’re lying. But whatever.
I am in that state of mind right now, and frankly I do not know what to do about it. You’re probably thinking, “well, dummy, don’t try to do so much” and you’d be exactly right. However, I challenge anyone to come to my house and go through my calendar and tell me what exactly I could cut out. Because, I’m telling you, you’d be hard-pressed to find anything…
Teaching is going SO extremely well. I love having the control of the classroom and being able to truly help my students. I have 50 students and each of them seriously mean the world to me. I always thought my teacher friends were full of shit (frankly) when they would say that about their students, but now that I am there I get it. I understand the feeling of disappointment when a student doesn’t come to class regularly and I know they need the help. I am doing everything in my power to help them learn to write and grow as writers in confidence. I don’t do it [their work] for them, but I come close. These students need someone like me. I am that bleeding heart who believes that the students deserve the best of me and that I need to give 110% every day in my class. And I can honestly tell you, that on a weekly basis, I am giving 100+% to my students. Which is leaving me exhausted, but it is worth it. It’s the good exhaustion.
Premier is busy. I am not going to lie, it has taken a major backseat, but it has to right now. I need to focus on my classroom and figure out how to fit the business into my new career. I am handling it well, but it is a balancing act, that is for sure. The new Holiday Gift Collection came out a few days ago and I am going to be ordering that soon (BOOK YOUR SHOWS NOW FOR HOLIDAY SHOPPING!! THERE IS A REASON JEWELRY IS THE NUMBER ONE GIFT EVERY SINGLE YEAR!). I truly love my business and the ability that I have to do with it what I can, when I can. Love, love, love.
We need a treadmill, so that’s next. I am getting sore from sitting around while working at home, and I need a way to get the blood pumping. We have a few ideas of what kind we are going to get, etc, but I am always taking feedback from my friends on their suggestions.
The girls got big girl beds today (like really, really big girl beds) and they are loving them. Caelan had been in a twin up until tonight, and she liked it. Now, she’s in a full bed and she thinks she’s the hotness (and she is, let’s be honest). Ellery’s is enclosed in bars, so she’s safe and she thinks it’s hilarious that we can now get in her bed with her and snuggle. She’s a giggly, silly little lady. Seriously, the total night-and-day-ness of the girls is unbelievable. Caelan was very sick, so she was higher-strung and not as happy all the time. Ellery is just chubby, giggly, smiley and full of personality. Caelan has always been full of motion and go-go-go and Ellery is way more subdued and laid back.
Preschool isn’t going as well as I had hoped, but it’s another transition and we will be getting through it together with family and the school’s support. I have confidence that all will work out.
Tomorrow is national Go Back to Church day, and I intend on doing just that. I am going to be checking out another Catholic church in the area. After 2 years of denying it, there is a reason I converted to Catholicism (other than the cop out I give people about getting married in the big, fancy church) and I need to revisit that reason again. After thinking about other options, Catholicism is the one idea that still makes sense. Shawn and I had agreed a while ago to commit to raising the girls in a Catholic home, and we need to go back to that and hold up that deal. So, I am going back, but am taking baby steps: small, tiny, baby steps until I am completely comfortable and can bust out my rosary with the rest of them. I actually have missed the prayers, the rosary…I should have kept it up, but it was easier not to. It was easier to deny it and pretend I knew better, I knew more. And I am not afraid to say it aloud now, that I don’t. I rededicated my life in July to Him, and In eed to make Him a priority. He’s never left me (and Lord knows, I gave Him plenty of reasons) and I am glad.
“And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him.” Luke 15:20
So: church, blogging, exercising…and I’d like to start knitting and writing again. These things need penciled in. I say screw another economic stimulus, I need a stimulus that adds a day to my week. A whole day. If Obama can pull that off, I think everyone would vote for him. THAT is true hope and change!!